A few days ago, my mastermind group caught me in my blindspot. It all started during my check-in during the call. One of my buddies suggested to me to think about getting a fulfillment house.
My response: “It only takes 30 seconds a book. I pick up the book, I pick up the letter, I put it in the envelope….”
Silence. My buddy: “I know how to put a book in an envelope.” I realized I was in the same blindspot my masterminders had called me on a while ago, that I’m still working with: letting help in. God forbid anyone help me, or that I can’t somehow handle it all myself.
I broke down- it was a very vulnerable moment. I realized I had conflicting needs: a need for support, help, ease. AND a need for caring, accountability- because I want my customers to have an excellent experience whenever they buy from me, and I didn’t want to risk outsourcing anything.
Anything.
I was reduced to tears, (yes, a grown man crying,) because I couldn’t figure out a strategy to both meet my needs for support, help and ease, and my needs for caring, accountability, quality in terms of delivering to the customer.
I feel incredibly blessed to see my business expanding and growing, and to interact with so many amazing people, who have such brilliant dreams they are bringing to life through their businesses.
But, as my business expands, I can’t do it all. This coming year, 2006, has one big theme for me, aside from all of the business, personal and community goals and priorities: expanding my experience of receiving help, without compromising myself. No answers yet, but I’m glad my mastermind has both the toughness and compassion.
